my blog is 1 year old :D

thats just meant that today is my birthday :DD
well my birthday is just like other ordinary dayy.
but this year my birthday is starts with tear drops...
why am i crying? im missing him. somebody who once was mine and he only belong to me :)
this year, its totally different. we are not like we are a year ago after the break up 5 months ago.but sometimes somehow i know that im silly and muka tak malu, when i miss him too much i will text him first..*sedihkan, nampak sangat aq ni terhegeh2 dekat orang yg nth sape2 je kita ni dekat dia :( i always wish i always wish he would stay. but it isnt. :'(
well, been crying about 10 minutes suddenly my phone is ringing justin bieber's song meesoto*hehe nak jugak tu bieber.. and its him calling me! i felt so awkward to answer the phone, with tears on my face. i let it ringing about 1,2 minutes but the phone still ringing and he doest put off the phone.. then i answer the call :)
he said, happy birthday.. hows spm? dah habes ke? and me reply la.. thanks, spm x habes lg.. last paper khamis depan est. then he ask est tu apa and blablabla.. i asked him tengah buat apa.. dia kata dia dah nak tidoo, bbaru nak tido sbb nak tunggu pkol 12 untuk wish bday aq.. and then me started crying again, but i bet he doesnt know.. then the end of our conversation.. the next 3,4 minutes he text me happy birthday and i cried again. haha. silly kan :) but what ever it is, i know that i am nobody to him.. i always pray for his success and semoga Allah jumpakan dia dengan perempuan yg baik2 sbb aq ni x cukup baik untuk dia.. dengan doa hari2 ni laa, hati ini dapat tenang. dan terima takdir Allah ni dengan redha.. huhu. k lah bye. :)
*maaf kalau anda2 yg baca ni x suka dengan apa yg aq post..dekat blog ni aq post benda2 yang aq x boleh nak luahkan dekat sesiapa selain Allah yang maha besar maha mengetahui. dalam erti kata lain, blog ini adalah tempat untuk aq luahkan perasaan aq. huhu
sorry. salam :)

dear ex-boyfriend..

hi, i miss you so much :)
heard about your test, you wrote it on your fb's wall and there was many people do care about you besides me.. i always pray for your success because only through those prayers i can be close to you.. awak, once i told you "ILOVEYOU" i will always be :')
hari ini genab dah empat bulan kita broke up, sampai sekarang saya tak tahu sebab apa awak mintak clash..
you never let me feel down till the day you want to break up :(
these 4months ive been crying tons of tearss awak.

hehe tetibe ingat dulu2.. dulu awak selalu bukak blog saya ni, and now i wonder if you still open this blog but i know you would not.. i am NOBODY to you