thats just meant that today is my birthday :DD
well my birthday is just like other ordinary dayy.
but this year my birthday is starts with tear drops...
why am i crying? im missing him. somebody who once was mine and he only belong to me :)
this year, its totally different. we are not like we are a year ago after the break up 5 months ago.but sometimes somehow i know that im silly and muka tak malu, when i miss him too much i will text him first..*sedihkan, nampak sangat aq ni terhegeh2 dekat orang yg nth sape2 je kita ni dekat dia :( i always wish i always wish he would stay. but it isnt. :'(
well, been crying about 10 minutes suddenly my phone is ringing justin bieber's song meesoto*hehe nak jugak tu bieber.. and its him calling me! i felt so awkward to answer the phone, with tears on my face. i let it ringing about 1,2 minutes but the phone still ringing and he doest put off the phone.. then i answer the call :)
he said, happy birthday.. hows spm? dah habes ke? and me reply la.. thanks, spm x habes lg.. last paper khamis depan est. then he ask est tu apa and blablabla.. i asked him tengah buat apa.. dia kata dia dah nak tidoo, bbaru nak tido sbb nak tunggu pkol 12 untuk wish bday aq.. and then me started crying again, but i bet he doesnt know.. then the end of our conversation.. the next 3,4 minutes he text me happy birthday and i cried again. haha. silly kan :) but what ever it is, i know that i am nobody to him.. i always pray for his success and semoga Allah jumpakan dia dengan perempuan yg baik2 sbb aq ni x cukup baik untuk dia.. dengan doa hari2 ni laa, hati ini dapat tenang. dan terima takdir Allah ni dengan redha.. huhu. k lah bye. :)
*maaf kalau anda2 yg baca ni x suka dengan apa yg aq post..dekat blog ni aq post benda2 yang aq x boleh nak luahkan dekat sesiapa selain Allah yang maha besar maha mengetahui. dalam erti kata lain, blog ini adalah tempat untuk aq luahkan perasaan aq. huhu
sorry. salam :)
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